you said you’d always be there
until i need you
and realized
you were never
really there
at all.
Feminist, Writer, Cult Classic
you said you’d always be there
until i need you
and realized
you were never
really there
at all.
her beauty
predisposed her
to disaster
but what a beautiful
chaos
she created.
when you left
i was convinced
that my soul
was a sinking
ship.
in the midst of the chaos
i closed my eyes
and watched the stars bloom slowly
through the darkness–
and in this moment
i knew
i would be
okay.
you came back,
now spend my nights
wondering
if you are in love
or just scared
of being
alone.
i felt the kind of lost
you only feel
when the light
at the end of the tunnel
goes out.
when you left
you left no memories untainted;
nothing grows here anymore
and nothing ever will.
my fears
took me so
far
from where
i wanted
to be.
you made me feel
loved
so you
could feel
wanted.
i loved you
until you told me to stop,
then i hated myself
for loving you
still.