1st blogiversary

I am writing this post a week after my actual blogiversary, because it took me a week after I created my blog to have the courage to post a poem every day. In fact starting the blog was an idea I had sat on for a while after gentle encouragement from my best friend Paul to start one and join the lovely WordPress community, which has introduced me to many great people including my blog mother and sister.

And it does take courage to post things, I would like to say that it has gotten easier over time, but as I found myself writing more, I found myself putting more of myself into my writing, exposing things through poetry I hadn’t thought about or been able to put into words for years. It has brought up a lot of things for me and put to rest a lot of things–and I am glad for this. It can be so easy to forget things things you’ve overcome and struggled with and writing is a good way for me to reflect on these things and move forward.

I wish my courage came from some sort of internal epiphany, but it was motivated by a car crash that happened–you guessed it–a week after I started my blog. I was driving back from Newfoundland with my girlfriend and her family in late July–a treacherous 24 hour trip which includes a ferry ride from the actual Newfoundland main-land to Nova Scotia. It was approaching dusk, about 10 hours into our trip, and I was using the last bits of light to continue reading Haruki Murakami’s Kafka on the Shore, when all of a sudden I heard screams from the back seat and the crashing of glass. I don’t remember the actual impact, or what happened after, just opening my eyes, the moose a distant figure on the road in the setting sun, struggling to stand. I remember getting out of the car and thinking that I should be dying, looking back at the massive moose with whom we impacted. I was in shock, I wanted to be home, I missed my family.

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This was the states of the car after the crash. I was sitting on the passenger side that was crunched in. Being that I am 6’5” I was had my chair fairly far back so my knees would fit into the car (a struggle all tall people know). Had I been sitting a few inches closer the car would’ve caved in on my head. Instead I was left with nothing more than a small scar on my shoulder from a piece of glass that found it’s way into my skin.

And as silly as it sounds, this is when my writing truly started. I realized I started the blog to help me write a novel–and that life was precious–and if I kept waiting for the right time I would never get around to it. I have watched myself grow through my writing. It is hard sometimes. Some nights I sit up obsessing over the placement of simple words, or rethinking of the meaning of something I’ve wrote. But I am forever grateful that I have done this and all the things WordPress has done for me, all of the kind words of praise I’ve received, the writing I’ve read that has inspired me.

So I have commemorated this moose accident with a small pair of antlers in among the stars on that back of my book cover as can be seen here. A simple gesture to a great beast of a moose who lost it’s life due to a clumsy coincidence. The crash was not his fault, or my girlfriends dad’s, or mine, just something that happens. One of those great, beautiful, tragic, messy things. Thank you to all of those who follow me, to those who inspire me, and everyone who reads. Here’s to another year.

42 thoughts on “1st blogiversary

  1. Congratulations on your blog anniversary, and thanks for sharing the context around your motivation for writing. Your poems are exquisite, capturing the essence of moments large and small.

  2. Glad to see that you found your way around the crash and use it as fuel, instead. Looking forward to more of your writing this following year. 🙂 Congratulations. <3

    (And, oh my….. I remember following *paul* because of *you* 'cause I would always think, "this guy….. Always comments something extremely quirky on each post. What's up with him?"
    I never realized you two were bros! Makes sense now. XD )

  3. I thank the Moose because yours is writing that enriches my little life and clearly so many others with its piquant and often painful potency Happy 1th (stet) to you and long may you ride

  4. Oh. My. God. I am speechless brother Chris!!! I was just about to go to bed after working all day and brother Paul told me to visit your post. (I see why now). I didn’t know any of this, I am so glad you were fine and you began blogging. Congratulations on it being a year!!! I can’t wait to read many more 🙂

  5. Congratulations to your year 1 blogging. Sorry for the moose. Glad you were okay but the care is not. My son-in-law, and my daughter in the car, hit a deer on the freeway. The deer made it go across the freeway and died. My son-in-law decided not go to the wedding and turned around to go home instead. The car barely made home and stopped running. I was glad that they made it home safely.
    I’m glad you were inspired by the accident and kept you writing.

      1. I know what it mean. Last weekend I did two posts about my cancer treatment. It made me relive that experience, it took a lot out of me. I’m always thankful, especially seeing people around me dying one by one. It really makes me think. As you said, it came that close! I’m glad you’re tall. My husband is 6’4″

  6. There is nowhere to hide in poetry I have found. It sniffs us out and exposes us. That’s why I have come to love it so much that it borders on obsession at times. Thankyou for sharing your story, it’s lovely to know a little more about you as I enjoy your poetry very much.

  7. Happy Blogiversary! And you’re right! AND – your work has indeed inspired me, and I’m sure I am not the only one! Wishing you many years of happiness and wonder 🙂

  8. Hi Chris, Happy anniversary and thank you for your inspiring, heartful poetry and your book! All the best to you. The photo of the crashed car is scary, i am glad you and the driver are fine. And I am happy you chose the moment to post your poetry. Thank you. Best regards from Germany.

  9. Chris, happy anniversary and it is strange how fate works. It is always a pleasure to visit your blog and read your work and, although I don’t always comment, your poetry always leaves a seed in my mind. I also appreciate the support you have given my work. Here’s to the next year.

  10. Congratulations and OMG at the same time. And thank you for the shout out, blog son. When my other blog son Paul told me to check out your blog and that you were his pizza-brother-in-arms, I said “sure.” And was introduced not just to you, but to your fabulous writing and poetry that touches my soul and reflects so many of my feelings.

    If you live where I live in New York, hitting deer is a common occurrence. I don’t think I know anyone who hasn’t. But moose we rarely, if ever, get this far south. I can’t imagine experiencing that accident. It’s funny (odd not haha) that your height saved you. My daughter is 4’10” and one night on a twisty road in the rain, lost control of her car and it flipped over several times. Luckily, since she was in the middle of nowhere, a farmer heard the crash and called the police. They said because she was short, it saved her life. She ended up, upside down and used her foot to honk the horn repeatedly. The roof was caved in but missed her head. We should always be thankful for our height!

    This is a wonderful post, and I’m sorry my comment is almost as long as your post. Congratulations on a fabulous year, and on the success of your book. For anyone reading my comment who hasn’t bought the book yet, you must. It’s his blog X 10. Heartwrenchingly beautiful poetry, with some pieces found here but many that you won’t find here. I’ve given probably 5 or more as gifts. Such is the power of “Dead of Night.”

  11. Whoa. I am so sorry for the Moose, and the Car, and the memory. But, I am selfishly so glad that you started writing. It isn’t a stretch when I say I will be forever moved by your words. As much as I love our poetry (and re-read your book), it is so refreshing to hear from you in a more elaborated fashion. This post is exactly what I needed today. You truly are amazing, Happy Blogiversary.
    PS. “One of those great, beautiful, tragic, messy things.” I love this.
    .xo.

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